UPDATE ON THE DAY!

Today was honestly my most powerful day with testimonies and lessons and just overall. First off i have been feeling a lot closer to the spirit because of repentance and simply trusting in the Lord. Today my mindset on the mission completely switched if im being honest and it only took one testimony. Before I was like yah its 2 years of helping people and feeling the spirit, but during this lesson and during my testimony my mindset has changed to "wow I only have two years in my life to help these people in Peru and thats it, no do-overs or second chances." The day was normal and then i had a feeling to go to this house and i was like hey Elder Beltran let's go to this house and he was like ok we can, I think he honestly saw my conviction and just agreed. So we went and the door was already opened and the mom was just cooking (which was already rare, its usually impossible to see them in the middle of the day). This family is a mom and dad and a little 7 year old. And we were just like hey just wanted to see how you are doing and if you can attend church tomorrow and she was like yah I should be able to, but my husband is really sick right now so we are a little rough right now. So we offered to give a blessing and we ended up giving one, and after we were like can we share a short message and they said yah go for it, so we did. And the message was good, but then it got to the end and I bore my testimony (and if im being honest I probably bare my testimony 4 or 5 times a day its gets pretty repetitive). But this time was different. I just let myself go and let the spirit take over, I said something along the lines of "i know this trial is difficult and I know life is very hard, but as we said our blessing only works through the faith of the person receiving it and their faith in our priesthood power. So I need you guys to sincerely pray tonight and really give an effort to go to church because I know how powerful this gospel is. (This is where I started to just cry, normally I tear up and I classify that as crying but this was like tears going down my face) I said, I only have 2 years to help everyone i can with this perfect gospel and to tell everyone how merciful and loving and powerful Heavenly Father truly is. This right now is a trial of faith and I promise you in the name of Jesus Christ if you can overcome this trial with faith in God and this gospel you will receive an immense amount of blessings and know the true love of God." The truth is that quote was probably like 60 percent accurate but a very good summary, I never bought the "i dont remember what I said because it wasnt me" but now I do. That truly was not me speaking, nor could I recreate that moment. That was God trusting me and using me as his vessel, I just opened my mouth and it was filled with his words. I read my patriarchal blessing for the first time in Peru 2 days ago and the sheer amount of emphasis on helping others, and having the gift of helping others and sofenting hearts and knowing their struggles and being able to help is insane. Thats why my mindset changed. I ONLY have 2 years in Peru to use these powerful gifts to help others and show them this perfect gospel, and I am so excited to do so (i also had the feeling to send her a text tonight so i did, and it was 100 percent not me thinking of those words haha i was using my gift of healing and let God do the work). After sharing a really powerful lesson and my experience on repentance and then my experience earlier today (i even got the bishops kid to get off roblox it was that good) at a family home evening tonight with the bishop, his family, and the patriarch and his family, and they said two things, 1 your spanish is very very good for 2 months  and 2 how much they felt the spirit while I was talking. Today was honestly a huge boost for this, this whole week has been. I keep having feelings to go to houses and they have all worked out (my comp even asked a guy in a ward how to get closer to the spirit this week, because of me, I dont know why he didn't ask me but thats neither here nor there), some havent worked out and thats just a trial of faith, I know for a fact it is, because any good thought is a thought from God, and while walking ill start singing "ill go where you want me to go dear lord, over mountain or plain or sea", (and the more lyrics but I dont wanna type it out) and I just keep going. I am starting to get really comfortable in the missionary lifestyle, I just need to open my mouth and speak and it will be filled. I learned fear is a tactic of the Devil and only the Devil, so I have been overcoming this and just opening my mouth. Me and the members are starting to get close and im getting really comfortable with the investigators (friends in teaching, thats their new name the church says). So yah this week was really good and no more making fun of mom when she cries (at least from me) I know shes feeling the spirit and she knows what she is saying is true

Anyways there's the GIANT UPDATE for yall, I hope you guys read it all, it took 40 mins to write, not only that but I just love sending updates and know I shouldn't share them with yall. Make the twins read it too they should. But yah love you all and cant wait to talk and see yall tomorrow (especially Lil Wourm)

Here's the text I sent her, ive never sent a really meaningful text like this yet in the field until today (obviously it was in spanish but here's the english version)

Tonight we invite you to pray with your family and ask God for strength tonight and tomorrow to go to church. With a sincere heart, we know God can help you with your afflictions and trials at this time. And through your faith in attending church and praying, you will feel the love of God and the Holy Spirit. Our blessing will heal your husband through your faith and the faith of your family. The feeling you experienced today during the lesson was the Holy Spirit, and through these things, you and your family can feel that again.